Hermès Bonanza

It is every true fashionists dream come true! Rejoice ladies!! As HERMÈS'S most coveted bags are on the market. On the 19th of November Christie's in London will be holding an auction for "A total of 66 lust-worthy bags, dating from the 60s to the present day, in an array of different colours, textures and sizes will be up for grabs." For the article click HERE and for Christie's and a show of the bags that will be auctioned click HERE. May the best lady get her pleasure..

Fashions fade, style is eternal.
~Yves Saint Laurent

Spill or Whatever

I'm pissed, angry, annoyed, and beyond the point of needing to spill my guts out. Can I do that? Nooo of course I can't!! Why not? Because this bitch of a blog isn't as "anonymous" as I would have liked it to be.. I can't even bitch in my own blog.. how great is that! Well fuck it. Anyways I'm in dire need of a spill post so here goes fucking nothing..

1. Forgive me father for I have sinned and sinned and sinned.
2. I put myself in the exact same position that I was in 6 years ago. And I fucking promised myself I would never ever again put myself in that position.. But I did again..
3. The more they remind me the more I hate.
4. The extra babying me is suffocating me!
5. I fucking hate hate hate that I can't spill my guts here anymore..

If you are like me suffocating and just wishing there was one place where you can spill all and let it out then be my guest.. use and abuse this post as much as you want.. I wish as hell I can..

Designer Babies

Designer Baby: an infant created by genetic engineering combined with in vitro fertilization in order to ensure the absence or presence of a particular gene or characteristic.

Hello Doctor. I'd like Twins. One boy. One Girl. The girl with coloured eyes. The boy with my husbands jaw. Make both geniuses. Ohh and make it a 7 month pregnancy as I don't want to ruin my body with the extra weight gained during the last couple of months. And make it a cesarean. Now lets talk price?

Now the above isn't quite exactly how the conversation would go for a "designer baby" but believe you me it is fairly the same! 7ashaa dasha khayaa6 mo doctor! What happened to "Eli eyee mn Alah 7ayah Alah"?? What is this craze of having genetically modified children?! I don't want a specially made shoe let alone a baby!! Shino ya3ni I choose the gender, features, intelligence etc. I can't get my head around the idea of modified children.

I know a woman who has 2 children of the same gender and now wants a 3rd child but of the opposite gender. She doesn't want to take the risk of having the 3rd of the same gender so she decided to "shop" for it and choose the gender without risking it! Now some might say why not? Science has reached such an advanced level and we have the choice. NO! NO NO NO! God gives and God takes! If God wants to give you a boy or a girl then so be it. You don't go out and design your own baby! A child is not a dress that you get to pick the colour and style.

In couple of decades time when the "designer baby" becomes a common thing are we going to have a superior race of beautifully genetically modified children skipping around while the less fortunate who can't afford such procedures have the ugly ducklings? Do we really need any more segregation within our societies? Is this not the work of Hitler?

I might not understand the importance of "designer babies" because I am a woman with zero maternal instincts. I don't care much for babies nor see the importance of having them. Yet if I do have one I wouldn't want it custom made! I wouldn't want to tell my child "Yes sweetheart your daddy and I made you from love and the very pricey handy work of a team of specialised scientists!" Talk about screwing the child up for good! The process of having a "designer baby" should only be used when eliminating diseases apart from that it should be illegal.

Are we For or Against having "Designer Babies"?

i want HIM!!

Abii abiii abiiiiiii.. Mo shoghly abiiii..

Someone get him for me ASAP!!

Look I was never the "celebrity crushing" type.. hell I don't do crushes full stop.. Okay I'm lying the ONLY celebrity crush I've EVER had was my footballer.. But that's not a crush, its more than that.. I LOVE my footballer, I'm head over heels, madly, insanely, can eat him up, infatuated, obsessed, worship, could die for him kinda crush *sigh* Ohh how I love him..................

Ok ok snap out of it FourMe.. Now after all these years of being crushless I finally have a celebrity crush!! How teenager'ish of me!? Anyhows it started with his song I Know You Want Me and now I saw the video below and the look on his face in minute 2:44 just makes me meeeeeeeeelt.. Yes I'm literally going KRAZY for him.. I want him.. I want that baldy (btw I have a thing for baldies).. His attitude is a mother fucker! 3amaa that look is so indescribable.. He's yummielicios.. He's soo0 hehehheee okaay ok ENOUGH because this is getting way toO fucking girly for me..

I want Pitbull *blushes*

Krazy

Passion

The manner in which human beings behave these days is that of androids. They live their daily lives as if it is an obligation not a blessing. The fast pace of life has made us lose sight of what is really important; the pleasure that comes from the process of achieving. Everything is demanded from us and we deliver, it has become so superficial and technical! Even our emotions are heading towards the same sad path, you're in a relationship then you are obliged to do/feel certain way not because you want to no because you should.

You know what's missing? Passion. Passion is missing, we need to be more passionate about EVERYTHING in life from work, family, study, friends, politics, religion, partners, humanitarian issues, and in general we need to be more passionate human beings. Passion gives one a surge of energy like no other, it pushes you that extra mile to make the best of what you are. Passion will make you enjoy what you are doing. Passion makes people happy. Its that feeling that you want to jump out of your own skin just to achieve your goal. When one is passionate one will do the freaking impossible!

Passion comes from within, it comes from a place deep down in you, it is so powerful to an extant it will push you to produce your absolute best! Is that not what we strive for? Do we not want to excel in every part of life? Marriages fail because people lose interest in each other, people fail in work and studies because they aren't passionate about what they are doing, political conflicts arise because parties forget their passion towards their cause and they concentrate on the materialistic gain, if we were more passionate towards planet earth we would make it by far a better place to live in, people lose faith in religion because they lose their passion towards it!

You need to want. Truly want. Truly need. Truly desire. Absolutely, completely, and utterly Need to Want something in order for it to come alive. Without wanting and needing it, it is lifeless. You simply need Passion..

"The most beautiful make-up of a woman is passion. But cosmetics are easier to buy."
~Yves Saint Laurent

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This is quite frustrating!

Simply I cannot find people that understand me..

I miss communicating ..

It is frustrating as hell..

Screw it..

Up Yours Mate!

Apparently going out in a football jersey gets you more attention than strutting around in a bikini !! I've got the flu, I look like shite, I had no make up on, was in jogging bottoms and my football jersey and had to run a quick errand, so you can just imagine how I look.. And I kid you not every other man turned his head to have a second look the minute I walked in!! You'd think Megan Fox just walked in!! Dudes get a fucking grip!! I know you weren't turned on by my pale faced natural beauty ya3ni.. its just a goddamn jersey!! You dudes wear it and no one gives a fuck so what's the bitching big deal?!

But the rant comes here.. There was one fuck face who pissed me off!! The bastard kept going on and on to his buddie (in short) " I bet she doesn't even know who that player is" meaning the name of the player on the back of my shirt "I'm sure she's one of those girls who wear football shirts to show off etc" "She never watched a game in her life" !!!!!!!!!!!!! ASSHOLE way3aa ely takhthik gool ameen!!

I fucking know who the player is as I've been supporting him for over a decade! I don't do football as a trend like those stupid girls to get guys attention!! I fucking LOVE football!! Asswipe when ever I travel the first thing I pack is my football jersey, whether I wear it or not I take it with me you bitching wanker because I LOVE MY TEAM!! I was this close to turning around and giving him a good talk but I don't like making scenes so I just ignored the motherfuck..

Last but not least to the girls who PRETEND to support football I say - UP YOURS!! As it is your fucking faults genuine female football supporters have to endure such trash talk because you whores lack the personalities to attract a man and result to pretending to like things he likes just so he gives you a second look!! Dumb dumb dumb lame ass wannabe's!!

i hurt me

I wonder why we do this to ourselves.. Why do we go over and over things in our minds that cause sadness, heartache, regret, and a dozen other similar emotions.. I find it extremely difficult to forgive and forget but am starting to do so.. But one thing I can't seem to do is forgive myself.. I can forgive the whole world yet I can't forgive myself for my actions! I blame and blame and blame myself over and over again for things that happened a decade ago.. Am I a masochist?? Do I enjoy self inflicted pain ? Or is it my way of teaching myself a lesson? I do not know.. All I know is that if I'm always reminded of my mistakes I won't do them again.. I judge myself harshly yet I don't give a damn how people judge me and I never did.. Why bother when I'm the harshest judge around..

Point is why do we choose to put ourselves through the pain of remembering?

Boy Heaven

Her: What's boy heaven to you?

Me: Tall men with tattoo's..

Yaa seems like my infatuation with that combo is getting worse.. I cannot resist it dammit its like Superman and kryptonite!! I see tall I go googoo I see tattoo I go gagaa.. Give me both and I'm in boy heaven..

Just out of curiosity what's boy/girl heaven to you? And I beg of you spare me the personality and kind heart crap.. We're talking purely about eye candy here.. Ohh and knock yourselves out anonymously..

Bra-Fire

Look this goddamn invention called "The BRA" is suffocating the hell out of me! I'm having issues with it, serious issues that is!! You ungrateful men imagine a rope tied around your chest and prevents you from breathing normally. Now imagine living with that 24/7 for the rest of your miserable lives!! Could you? Really tell me could you? And you wonder why us women are short tempered and cranky!? take a wild guess!

I'm having issues with the bra :/ I can't handle it anymore. Go a size up a size down, loosen it, tighten it nothing is helping I can't I simply cannot handle it no more.

-Why why can't we go out without bras?
-What's wrong with having the girls set free?
-Men go out commando and no one knows!
-Why can't we do it?!
-Why is it frowned upon?
-Why any woman out without a bra is labelled as "asking for it"?!

When women in the 1960s burned their bras they were referred to as rebels?!? Why are women always discriminated against?! If all the dudes in Kuwait gathered and burned their emkasar'at (agi9 edy etha a7ad feekom ey3arf shino jam3 emkasar :/ ) we wouldn't say they were rebels!! We would simply say they want more space for the boys.. See we understand confinement. We understand ones need to let loose. We understand the need for one to breathe without being suffocated!! Grant us the following..

So I propose that..
+Every women reading this post gathers all her bras.
+Meet me in da Avenues on Saturday 3pm
(most men will be busy watching football).
+We have us a Bra bonfire in Phase2 ehnaak ako fas7aa etkafy all our bras
+And sing Burn Baby BURN!!

Now is that too much to ask for??
I just want to be liberated!!
This is against my human rights!!
I just want to let goddamn looooooooooooose :(

Ball-Less

One thing I cant stand is when people are ball-less.. May it be man or woman.. I can't stand it!! It annoys me it annoys the fuck out of me!! For fuck sake why would I give a damn or what difference would it make to me or my existence if you had the balls to admit something and not behave like a friggin 2 year old!! Hell when a 2 year old damages something he/she stands there with a smile on their face! But full grown adults being ball-less!! Now that's just wrong! Look I was never one to be afraid of anything whether its something to do with my personality or whatever the fuck it is.. I always said and did what I wanted to say and do without beating around the bush and being ball-less.. I so like have balls of steel! My imaginary balls trump any man's balls reading this post! So please you ball-less people out there can you grow a pair and grow the fuck up and stop being such sissies and grab life by the balls!! Ukhhh I'm so frustrated at the amount of ball-less people around that I could scream!!

Come on say it with me..
"I AM BALL-LESS. I AM A SISSY. SHAME ON ME."
There there don't you feel better now? Ohh yes you do!!

Nothing worse than a gutless woman is a ball-less man!!
Shame on you men and on the pair that you got..
Ehh ball-less it is..

Queen B.

What didn't kill me ..

Made me stronger..

See Ya..

Don't miss me too much..

too painful

Slept at 6 and woken at 7 by another episode of excruciating back pain.. Took two different painkillers and barely working. This has to be one of the worst pains I have ever felt in my life. I need to take my mind of it cuz if I don't I will collapse from how painful it is. This motherfucking disc pain tops all pains. Its fucking painful the life is being sucked out of me. Tried walking around to ease pain and not working. Three days without pain and now this horrid horrid pain. This is what torture is. A thousand knives are being dug in my back. Alf il7amdila bs I beg of you God I can't handle this pain please make it stop I beg of you..

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What people fail to understand is that I have a knack for connecting the dots and putting one and one together.. I turn a blind eye not because I do not know certain things but simply I don't make things my business till they are.. Seriously don't insult my intelligence! Really I deserve more credit as it will take a hell of alot more to fool me..

p.s. I is rockin :p

4 letter word . . . .

I was tagged by Errant to do this tag a week or so ago.. Since then it got me thinking about L.O.V.E.. the type of love I'm talking about here is the one between a man and a woman not that love you have for your siblings or parents..

What is Love?

What constitutes Love?

Does Love exist?

How many times does one get to fall in Love?

Is Love a figment of our imagination?

And so on.. As I've regained my old self and became the girl who asks, why, when, where, how, again and a million little questions to understand everything and anything around.. I've become quite the inquisitive little bunny.. I want to know it all.. And dear Errant's tag has raised a thousand questions up in my head about Love and what it is and how it is perceived..

Now I have come off cloud nine and hit reality that I was always a fan of.. Realistically I believe love does not exist (wait did hell just freeze over ?!) :p .. I believe there are two type of affections each based on different variables that is justified by others as "Love".

1. The heart wrenching, stomach butterflies, skip a heart beat, desire, passion, head over heels type of affection. In my book that's just hormones being an absolute bitch and playing you like a fool..

2. Understanding, reason, common sense, reality, comfort, maturity, and other similar affections.. This in my book is using your brain rather than your heart and hormones and being wise about your choices and working what life throws at you..

Some say I have become cynical, I say I'm just more realistic.. Am I capable of "loving" a person either way or both combined? Yes I am. Would I label it as Love? I wouldn't as I truly don't believe that word to be true.. That word represents Romeo & Juliet. Unfortunately there are no more Romeo's nor Juliet's in our lifetime. There is no "I am willing to give my all , heart, soul, mind, and life". Sounds stupid doesn't it? But that's how that word has been portrayed over the centuries. A fictitious creation by the world's most renowned writers.

Reality is that we all have been in love once, twice, thrice, and so on.. After that "Love" that makes your insides tremble with the mere thought of your loved one we come to the table again and indulge in love once more. What is it to be? Love II? Love once again? Love till you get lucky? Starting to sound a bit commercial doesn't it? The word is starting to lose its genuine feel, its overused, and is way over exaggerated. "Love" is nothing but a bundle of emotions brought together by a four letter word..But then again that is my opinion..

What constitutes L.O.V.E. to you?

Flip!

+ This back pain is unbelievable!! It ain't going away! It is absolutely horrible.. I have never experienced such discomfort :(

+ Look I'm in too much god damn pain to care how I bloody look!! and as a result I haven't dyed my roots and my grey hair is glaring like sunshine.. So yesterday my cousin's 10 year old kid who's sitting couple meters away says "FourMe your grey hair is showing why didn't you colour it!! (with a disgusted look on her face) " I was this close to smacking her :( and today my aunts husband during lunch looks at me with a shocked face "Shino hatha!!"
Anyone else wants to bitch about my grey hair?? Please feel free to do so..

+ A fellow spinster friend of mine is nagging me to go away with her for couple of days.. Last time we travelled together was 2003 and it was a damn blast! I remember at one point we entered the hotel bare feet holding our high heels in our hands (don't ask) :p I think I am in need of such getaway.. problem is I am afraid it will wake up the insane girl in me and I will end up having too much fun :/

+ Truly elmamnoo3 marghoob..

+ And they say..

Every saint has a past and every sinner has a future.
~Oscar Wilde

Across the gateway of my heart I wrote "No thoroughfare". But love came laughing by and cried "I enter everywhere"
~Herbert Shipman

I regret every chance I missed at protecting myself from being hurt
~Anonymous

I'm pretty, but I'm not beautiful.
I sin but I'm not the devil.
I'm good, but I'm not an angel.
~Marilyn Monroe

++Happy Eid++

++ 3eedkom Mubarak o tqabal Alah 6a3atkom my lovelies :*

++ Alf Alf il7amdila khatamt elQuran twice this month :D (Anony I beat YOU! :p ) Obviously mother, aunt, and cousin beat me cuz they read it 3 times mashala 3alaihom.. Bs il7amdila this is the first time I read it twice in ramadan.. Next year inshala I'll beat them..

++ Don't forget 6 Shawal..

el3oba 3obaa

The lack of road etiquette here is shocking!! You'd think people around were barbarians!! I was stuck in a one way with a dead end ahead and cars parked left and right and on top of each other mn eza7ma!! The only way to get out of that shit hole of a street was to do u-turn in the middle of the tiny street.. The guy behind was a gentleman and waited while I was literally reversing and doing a u-turn in what felt like a shoebox!! Then out of the blue comes a 3oba in a ML and almost smack into me and forces me to reverse into a dkan.. Ya3ni one more inch and I'd be inside the thalja parked next to the sunkist and pufaak!

A msg to el3oba wearing a shaila in a white ML:

Yali matst7een matshofeen its a tiny street wintay daysa w msta3yila ela b6ofeen??!! 3asaa y6awfoon 3alaich eljana goolay ameen.. Edenya ermthaan 3al aqal a7trim hal shahar w a9er ademya w an6ir enas y6l3on mn hal showari3 eza7ma! Yali matsmain roo7ay egray Mkarim Elakhlaaq yemkin et3almain mina elakhlaq e6ayba yali lo ya39roonich ma te6la3 minich ng6aat akhlaq!

Yal 3oba, yal thay3a, yal laytha, yal tayhaa, yali lo eybe3onich eb soog eljet matybeen se3r eljet.. Yal khraisha yali mat3arfeen esana3 shfaydaat hal 7jab eli 3ala rasich wintay mat3arfeen eladab!! Laaa w zan6a 3omrich bl shaila!! 3asa yazn6oonich w y3algoonich mn ergobtich eb sa7at e9faat! Laish 6ayraa afhaaam!!!!!!!! Khooo mako masyid eb akhir elshari3 wla mostashfa 3ashan agool ma3thoora! Laykoon meta'akhra 3ala zaftich!! 3asahom ezfoonich 3ala ebless el laila ghabra methil elaila eli sheftich feeha!!

Yal sheefa yali ma tswain ersh ta3reefa, yal ghabra, yal 3oba, yal dathra, yal 3ayba, tadreen lo ana ma3arf esana3 chan eshsawait feech 3ala 7araktich!! Chan dashait feech ed3oom w khalait hal ML ey9eer Mini o foga nzalt o rda7tlich o sawiat feech sowaya matsolaf!! Bs esharha mo 3alaich esharha 3ala eli ma3rfaw ey3almoonich esana3 wil e7traam..7ragtay a39aabi!! 7asby Alah 3alaich mn ebnaya..

She's gone..

I was woken up to the news of her death :( yesterday she was diagnosed with cancer that spread to her whole body.. And today she passed away.. She was my childhood friend I have countless memories of her.. I haven't seen her in years but everytime I heard news about her it was like I saw her yesterday :(

She lives abroad.. I can't even go to her funeral :(( Alah y9abir galb omich w ahalich.. Alah yer7mich my dear friend o yaghfirlich thanbich o ydakhlich fasee7 janata :(

You will always be remembered :(